we had a pretty huge fight just now, i don't know why. but it was bad. and it hurt like mad. it started off by him misreading my message. i don't know, i just think he's way too sensitive sometimes i mean like hey- it was a purely innocent message. and everytime we talk about that person he starts getting really upset and uptight. and we end up quarelling. what's wrong with talking about that person? i really dont' understand. i mean, yeah, fair enough, he might view him as a sort of threat or some form of competition, i don't know... but i mean to react like that? isn't that a bit much? maybe i really do ask for too much, set my standards too high. i'm very scared i lose him, i'm just afraid he'll go away. you can't blame me, right? i'm trying to justify my unreasonable behaviour here by the way. yeah. he said that i really hurt him sometimes, just that he doesn't tell me. but does he know it happens the other way around too? so many times? it's the little things that people do that really get to me. like forgetting an anniversary, or not remembering what i mentioned a couple of nights/weeks ago. if it's unimportant, then that's fine. but if it's important to me, shouldn't he respect that? sigh i don't know. i shouldn't be thinking about all this stuff now. physics pract's the monday after next if i'm not wrong. heh. really praying that i pass. and that i do okay for my Os. well guess i'll just do my part and leave the rest to god yupyups okay i shall go and study now...
baby.. i know you're reading this... and i just wanna tell you that i really do love you and that i'm sorry. i want this to last as badly as you do, and you're supposed to be the one who slips the ring onto my finger, yes? so til then, let's try to hang on in there k? love you 'hun :) and happy birthday in advance. ohoh this is part of your present! finally being able to read my blog - yeah, i trust you enough (= muahs. -pinky promise-.
posted by meishi @ 7:47 PM
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