where yesterdays are all boxed up & neatly put away.

remember how i told you that things between the two of us might change, becuase we won't be apart forever and ever (if this relationship goes anywhere...) it is, in a way, a very frightening thought because i don't know how to live otherwise, right now? but it made me quite happy, in more than one way. because maybe, one day, all the thousand dollar phone bills will disappear, nights spent lying in bed thinking of each other will disappear, distance-induced paranoia will disappear. but, that's just maybe.

ok that was. in may. and it's actually happened, you're back for (pretty much, short term, at least) good. and it's not as if i'm unhappy that you're back with me. and that we get to see each other every week, more or less. i'm just unsure of how my life will turn out, how it'll change. whether or not it'll change. i don't want to not have time for my friends on a permanent basis. i don't want to give up the life i led from january to june. because all my buddies were there for me and i'm eternally grateful for them, and i will therefore not chuck them in a corner just because you're back. but on the other hand. i don't want to not spend time with you because i love spending time with you, more than anyone else. so we'll have to work this out. and i really don't quite know how things are going to work out. nervous excitement, definitely. sometimes i wish i was slightly more simpleminded, that i didn't think things through. we'll see where this path leads us, just follow the yellow brick road... i suppose?

(:

Our friends would all make fun of us,
And we'll just laugh along because,
We know that none of them have felt this way,
Delilah I can promise you,
That by the time that we get through,
The world will never ever be the same,
And you’re to blame.

posted by meishi @ 8:26 PM