finally managed to spend some time with my family (read : my 2 older brothers and my mother) dinner on friday, shopping on saturday, sound of music at night, dinner on sunday, laura fygi concert a while ago. and as usual, it led me to realize that i am, essentially, a family-oriented person. anyhows.
when i think about the way things are, i do so in two completely different ways.
1) very screwed up.
2) thankful.
let's skip the first and get to the second one.
whining never did anyone any good, anyway!
when i think about you, i am. thankful
even though you're not here
even though i can't see you after school the way others do
even though our phone bills run to the sky
even though we miss each other so much it hurts
even though i don't get to meet you for breakfast for church
even though i don't get to go to church with you
even though you can't buy me skittles to cheer me up anymore
even though i haven't seen/touched you since jan2nd
even though we spent our first month apart
even though we'll be spending our second and third months apart
even though postage costs a bomb
even though there are some things that we don't talk about
even though we have to stay up til unearthly hours to talk to each other
even though the only way we can communicate is by phone/email
even though your stupid webcam won't work
even though your cheesiness drives me up the wall sometimes
even though you're so possessive it scares me occassionally
even though you won't stop calling every other free moment
even though i know you have no idea what i'm rambling about sometimes
even though we neglect our responsibilities to spend that extra hour on the phone
even though we drive everyone around us crazy with our hours on the phone
all those even thoughs, and more.
i couldn't be more thankful. cos essentially. you've been there for me like nobody else has: the way you pick up your phone irregardless of the time of day(or night), the way you listen to me grumble about the ogre and everyone else who irks me, the way you tolerate my tantrums and my temper, the way you try, the way you waited til you thought the time was right, the way you send me back every single time, the way you worry so damn much, the way you understand when i fall asleep after just 5 minutes, the way you allow me to hang up the moment cheryl/joan/anyone of my lovelies call, the way you have faith in me, faith that i never thought possible, the way we make each other feel bad about silly things and misunderstandings. i never knew phone calls could make anyone this happy (:
so, it's 8 weekends til he gets back. 8 long weekends. but it's alright. we've survived about 17 of those already. what's 8 more. and besides, we're stronger than that. now, i'm a believer.
and! to my friends! i love you all too la okayyy. enough fretting! the boyfriend gets thrown into the bin whenever you guys call. much love.
kiss the rain.
posted by meishi @ 12:38 AM
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