where yesterdays are all boxed up & neatly put away.

this is the worst christmas i've ever had. well at least i think it's gonna be the worst. i think i'm swingin' single again!!! woohoopeedooo. hurh hurh. he doesn't give a shit anyway. so why should i. he doesn't bother to make time for me. so why should i bother. i'm fecking miserable now. and i have to go for my younger bro's birthday dinner. how yucky. eew. i can't believe he went "i can't believe you still don't what makes me tick." i'm like wtf you're the one who has no bloody time for me look who's talking about making who tick. seriously. i don't see the point in being together if we're either fighting or not talking. i mean like hi isn't being in a relationship supposed to make you happy? not make you like cry your eyes out? or at least til they turn red? f him.. f f f f f f f. i'm very annoyed. and the worst part is that i have to act all cheery at home... otherwise my mom will start askin questions. i mean her concern is appreciated occassionally. but not everytime?! yeah... anyhow. i should've gone anyway for the weekend. for goodness' sake... i should've gone away for x'mas. instead of objecting violently. i thought i could spend x'mas with him. but boy was i wrong or was i wrong. i told my mom to cancel x'mas dinner plans cos i thought i would be seeing him. but oh nooo guess who's busy. whatever man. i'm beyond angry. on the verge of breaking up. he seriously doesn't seem to give a shit. i asked him to come out so that he could try a shirt on ... i don't wanna waste like 400 bucks if it doesn't fit him. but he JUST CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO EVEN COME OUT TO TRY A BLOODY SHIRT. i bought the candles to melt today. i ordered the jelly cookie thing that is really nice. i don't even feel like giving any of those to him. FOR WHAT!? it isn't gonna go appreciated anyway. i'll just give the jelly cookies away.and use the candles for myself. and as for the shirt. i'll save the money and spend it on myself. f him i hope he just disappears.

posted by meishi @ 7:41 PM