I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your pressence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just to real
There's just to much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
and you screamed i'd fight all way of your fears
I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still...have...all of me
You used to captivate me
by your resignating light
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
my once pleasent dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just to real
there's just to much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
and you screamed i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still...have...all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that your gone
but though your still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
and you screamed i'd fight away all of your fears
I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still...have...all of me
we had a fight... again. and as of now, i'm just waiting for him to breakup with me. i don't know what his problem is. but i swear that it's not my fault. not this time anyway. he's so bloody insensitive it's impossible. i'm tired of caring for him. i'm very sick and tired of him thinking that he's like some king. if he doesn't think that way, i don't know why he acts that way. i'm really sick of hanging on and hoping that he goes back to the way he was when we first got together. i don't know what to say anymore. like i mentioned in a gazillion previous entries, we don't talk anymore. it's just superficial small talk most of the time. which really sucks. like just now, he was like keeping quiet. and then i was like hey are you okay, what's wrong? and then he goes you're different from the way you used to be. now everytime i keep quiet, you think that there's something wrong. and everytime i answer in some weird tone, you think something's wrong too. or you think i'm angry with you. if you don't wanna talk i'm heading to bed now. bye. WHATEVER. it's my fault i care for you isn't it. you don't tell me when you're upset, unless it's really obvious. but by then, it's usually too late. so how am i gonna know if i don't ask you? and when i ask, i get really crappy answers. you might as well just tell me to my face that you wanna break up and that you don't really think staying in this relationship is worth it anymore. sheesh. oh.. and apparently i'm extra sensitive now. maybe that's cos he's extra can't be bothered now. nothing i do's ever right. i was complaining about my throat last night... and about how horrible i sounded. didn't get an ounce of sympathy. i don't know why we're together anymore. i don't know how much longer i can hang on.
posted by meishi @ 9:59 PM
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