where yesterdays are all boxed up & neatly put away.

before i start raving & ranting... THANKS FOR A GREAT DAY, JOAN! (: i had lotsssss of fun listening to old school rock&roll and just talking to youuuuuu while sitting on the breakwaters <3

okay now i shall start raving and ranting.

1. I HATE HAVING TO APPEAL. damn you, lse.

2. you and you are the definitions of TERRIBLE FRIENDS. i almost do not want to acknowledge the ties that i am supposed to have with both of you. but let me talk about one YOU in particular. the YOU i thought i could count on hahahaha my ass. anyway. it's ridiculous of me... thinking that maybeeeeeee just maybeeeeeeee one day you'll realize "oh my lord how did we drift so fat apart! you were my best girl friend once! oh terrible me i shall try and make things up to you!" haha fat hope, ho mei shi. i have realized that there is nooooo point whatsoever in thinking that that'll ever ever happen cos it won't everrr everrr happen. and right now. i do not intend on even telling you when i leave for the uk. i intend on just disappearing from your life, the same way you disappeared from mine. well, shame on me for believing in you and our friendship. so busy my ass. i should reaaaaally never have bothered replying the sms-es that you sent me in the middle of the night, or bothered arguing with sheng about our friendship. whattttt on earth, may i ask, was the bloody point of all that effort! i will now promise myself that i will not make such an effort anymore. never again, not for you... that's for sure. that's why i haven't messaged you lately, i have given up. i swear to god i have to restrain myself sometimes, when i feel like messaging you just to check in on you and see how you're doing. it's just a bad habit i guess... one that i should kick asap. so much for being the one you'd always call whenever you needed help. just because my boy's back doesn't mean things hae to change, right? what difference does it make anyway... anyhow, now we know where i stand in your life. way down there, with those other dusty numbers. well i'm pretty damn sure you have no idea who you are. i don't even know if you read this. but well i really just hope you disappear from my life altogehter. part time friends like you just piss me off. that's about all i have to say regarding you, pal. friendship, my ass.

ok joan and i had a pretty meaningful conversation tonight... about everything & nothing at all. and we came to the conclusion that we loveeeee our close friends who've proven themselves, those whom we can just sit in comfortable silence with. we can't be bothered with the rest and we hope they just disappear. and although our lives consist of more than one type of person, we hope that those who aren't our close friends don't bother us. we hate making small talk with people we haven't seen in ages and whom we have nothing in common with. we hate backstabbing shits and those who are sneaky. but! we love each other <3

ok that's about all i have to say.

posted by meishi @ 12:13 AM