where yesterdays are all boxed up & neatly put away.

so! results were released on friday. and i must say i'm quite pleased with most of my results. okay, half. haha. econs was uber disappointing like what on earth! and so was southeastasian history. but lit & ih turned out to be quite pleasant surprises. gp was just blahhhh. but in any case, thank god for the results. yup!

so! my class has been talking about having cell once a week... like after school or something (before school seems tougher) and we've been procrastinating for ages and ages and ages. like really ages. i think we've been wanting to do it since last year. and then this year. and then all the cca commitments came in for the classmates, and then holidays and prelims. and now! it's post prelims-pre As! and i think now's the time to have it, and now's the time to stand up and get off our sorry little asses and start to do something that we want to do, something that we all know we need. i felt an awesomely strong conviction during church today, and something must really be done about it, and i'll go do something about it tomorrow. i've messaged some of the, those who came up with the initial idea. and i can't wait to share it with the rest tomorrow and fix a day and everything like that. and i am so uber glad that shirah has come to know god it brings me such immense undescribable joy because i do love her so superdupermuch DO YOU HEAR THAT NAIR? (: and joan & i are getting her her newwww bible on wednesday afternoon i really hope she likes it a superduper lot because i uh. think it'll be her source of strength and everything. so it's been a rollercoaster few months, perhaps the entire year. and i've had so many convictions from god, through songs/sermons/friends or just the odd little voice in my head (god, i presume). and i've been promising myself that i'll act on it and that i'll stop being all rubbishy and wishywashy about my faith and everything. it hasn't happened yet, sadly. but it will happen todayyyyy. and i will freaking stop worrying about what's to come, and like my mommsieees said in the car on friday night. just do my best and leave the rest to god because at the end of the day his ways are higher than mine, ways that i will never even understand. hence forth, i will shut up about how worried i am about x or y or z and just submit everything to the lord in prayer and accept the answer with obedience. i know it's easier said than done, but hey, give me credit- at least i'm making the effort here. and i know that the fact that my heart is set on it is already enough for god, cos what he wants is for us to try our best and rely on his strength, not ours since it's his that matters. and! church camp is in december... whee. i mean yes it's in december, it always is. 8-11 december are the days to look out for! cos lives will be turned around transformed recommitted, and so many great things will happen, i just know it.

and one more thing! sometimes i think we christians can look really silly to the outside world. you know how we're supposed to have the joy of the lord within us? but hey! we act like the world's crashing down on us and there's nothing we can do, we grumble and swear like everybody else around us, we do things for the sake of doing them and we just go on with our sad lives without realizing that hey, we've got the joy of the lord with us... i know this cos i'm really guilty of it. i'm the chief complainer and grumbler. just a thought, i suppose (:

and wow it's been a really long time since i've posted something like this on my blog. but i'm really glad i have cos i just needed to get everything out of my system. thanks pals like joan (: i loveeeeee you so much!

i wanted to post a picture from camp last year. and from like argh nevermind. stupid blogger. nyehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

posted by meishi @ 9:46 PM