where yesterdays are all boxed up & neatly put away.

there's one thing that's very different about him... he's unlike anybody else i've been interested in actually. heh. he thinks we're going to last forever. it's kinda scary, i admit... but i guess it's really sweet in more ways than one. i mean like i don't know. is it even possible for 2 people to be so madly in love at the age of what? - 16? and have one of them claim to want to marry the other? i mean it's quite absurd when you think about it. but for one moment, i put those doubts aside, and stopped being logical... and it just felt so right, so sweet. i don't know :) i know i get really huge moodswings where i love him one moment, and i don't the next... but that's just me i guess hmm... anyway. yeah... back to the forever thing. well he thinks we're going to last like forever, and he thinks us being together is like really god's will and everything. but frankly i'm not too sure... i mean yeah, we're good for each other in quite a couple of ways. but other than that? i don't know. and i mean like when 2 people are together by god's will and stuff aren't they supposed to be like glorifying him with their actions or something? or at least doing something remotely close to that? hrmmsh i don't know. just get a constant nagging in my head these days... don't know if we're headed in the right direction but i sure hope we are. getting on his wrong side is preeeeetty terrible. it's not like we'll be struck by lightning or anything like that ( i think ) but i mean yeah it's just um not very advisable la yup.

ok let's talk about what happened on saturday. yup well. we went out... he was very very late... cos i went to meet jieli at njc for his funfair thing after bumming around at my godma's house in the morning. yeah, didn't stay at nj for too long, it was pretty darn boring. so i stoned there with him for like an hour or so... then i left for town. that must've been about like 120 or something like that. okay so i was really superduper bored. and jieli persuaded me to take the bus. so i took about 20 mins or so to get to town. or at least i think it's 20 mins. even after taking my own sweet time to get to town, i was still too early to meet him. or well let's rephrase that. he still hadn't gotten to town. it was like 215 or so by the time he got to town -rolls eyes- yeah. so i was really unhappy. as if the fact that he couldn't spend the morning with me wasn't bad enough... and to top things off we had a big fat fight the night before, right? yeah. anyway. we made our way to ps. we didn't talk until we got into the mrt station actually. i don't know why, odd huh? yeah so we walked from kino to orchard mrt... without holding hands or even talking. i don't know. maybe i was being um too xiao qi or somethings. everything was fine from then on... until after the movie. we were downstairs. i was waiting for my mom. i had a sudden pang of depression and yeah. the rest is private. bah :) i think only like 4 ppl know. but that's good i wouldn't mind terribly if i kept it that way.

alrighteys today's entry's like superduper long man! haha okayokay... nights!!!

posted by meishi @ 11:20 PM