where yesterdays are all boxed up & neatly put away.

i just fought with him. maybe it was my fault. maybe i wasn't being understanding enough. but he said he'd come. and he knew about it for the longest time. well at least 2-3 weeks. he didn't care. or maybe he did. maybe i'm just being unreasonable again. i expect too much don't i. maybe the whole foundation is wrong. maybe the relationship doesn't have a foundation in the first place. maybe. i really don't know what to do, and all i can say is that i'm just really frutsrated and confused. i don't know... messed. perhaps i'm reading into this little tiff abit too much. and maybe there isn't really that much to it except that i'm the upset girlfriend who upset her boyfriend who upset her again. i hate the way he hung up. it was so abrupt. forget it i don't want to talk about it. i've already cried i don't want to again... i've gotta kinda like get myself happier so that i can go and do math tuition hw in a while. don't even know if we're still going out tomorrow. don't even know if i want to anymore. or if he wants to in the first place. fought with my mom yesterday... about contacts again. stupid things... so bloody inconvenient. i hate changing them. blah. and my degree went up so i need to change like everything... oh goddess me so irritating. grrr. i thought he'd message me or call me back maybe to apologize or say something. but he didn't. i guess i screwed up big time again huh. ack i should just shut up and drop the topic it's so bloody depressing. school today was pretty okay though. chemistry lab was a-okay, which is very unusual. gk goh didn't scold anyone today - phew - we only had like half an hour of class after recess. stupid yylim's geog elective. yeah going now this is getting very draggy i hate having red puffy eyes from crying/rubbing. -your love is like a knife that cuts both ways.

posted by meishi @ 11:04 PM