where yesterdays are all boxed up & neatly put away.

rainy nights have this overly calming effect on me. leads to me not wanting to move my stupid fingers to pract my music, and definitely causes me to not want to do any work whatsoever. pract crit essay's due on friday, but i can't seem to get down to grouping my points together and then proceed to write a decent, coherent piece of work. right now, i can't even think of an introduction. thank god for ming. yes ming, that's you. thanks.

anyways. back to rainy nights. i don't really know what's up, but i feel awfully down tonight. (hur hur, up and down! hurhur ok not funny.) i like 2am. i don't make sense here. somehow, i can't seem to put something coherent down, anything. i am depressed. experiencing a subversion of what's real and what's not. people drift, acquaintences and 'surface friends' drift. it's the people who stick by you who really matter. those who check in on you once in a while make all the difference sometimes, those who don't fade away. it's nobody's fault, since nobody should be forced to contact a person. but yes, it is disappointing at times. i suppose having people whom you thought were your good friends suddenly disappear makes you treasure those who really are pals even more. it doesn't take much.

as my heart holds you
just one beat away
i'll cherish all you gave me
everyday.

posted by meishi @ 10:36 PM