not good enough
insignificant
unaccomplished
untalented
unpretty
unloved
disliked
unimportant
unintelligent
maybe it's the stress from the 2 tests tomorrow getting to me.
maybe it's what happened this morning.
maybe it's just a build up of things.
how odd- darrell sent me one of those fwd-ed sms-es where you make yourself look like an idiot by reading it backwards... and it made me laugh. funny isn't it? that the least expected people make you smile- unintentionally at that. so thank you darrell, if you still read this.
many thanks goes out to those who made an effort to make me smile today, or at least make me that much happier. (trying to make me smile was ambitious by the way... that's how bad i felt)... there aren't really that many, so i'll name all those special special especially special twinkling stars in my life :)
1. A for effort goes out to MISS LAUREN CHOY HUIWEN (choyhuayhuay). you tried to make me feel better even though you felt like shit. that's what besties are for. THE bestfriend (: i love you babe. really do. and yes, i won't die, for you.
2. Edward. you called me half way through my econs tutorial and i had to pick up the phone the moment i saw the blinking hearts on my screen, it made me that much happier, something only you've been able to do thus far. it's really the little things that you do that make all the unhappiness in my life fade away.
3. 1AD1 girls... specifically karen. thank you (:
4. Gary. Thanks for taking the time to check on me and listen to me bitch/whine about every darn thing remotely possible, even when you're out of town. I really do appreciate it alot.
5. the last person (until now) to make me happy today... JOAN CHAN! thank you joan, for being there to hear me bitch about certain species! (C.A.T.S). my jazzjazz and christian cd partner... my small group's honourary member and of course my hao peng you.
thank you everybody. i'm going off to take a nap now. shangwei asked me if i wanted to go down to pj on fri evening to lie on the track and watch the stars cos it's apparently very nice. i don't mind. i miss pj lots. i miss the people, i miss my friends. people who i think are real friends. thanks to them too. okay, i'm gonna get mushy now. goodnights everybody. please pray for me, i need to destress, i need to have faith in god, myself, edward and my besties, i need to do reasonably well for my tests. thank you everybody. god bless.
"i will never leave you, nor forsake you"
- somewhere in the bible. i think it's joshua 1 something. but it's confirm from the bible, so don't say i'm talking cock! (unlike joan chan who sings the ketchup song with random lyrics, and speaks in a tongue that only exists to her over-active imagination!) :)
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